to heAL.
To heal. Healing Im realising is not easy. Its not linear and its definitly not comfortable. This is why some people will never do it. Theyd rather live in distraction, avoidance, drink it away etc. I really dont blame them. Who actually wants to feel years of generational pain? Who feels excited to face the fact youve been abused, raped manipulated and relive that through nightmares, triggers, breaking down in a gym changing room ? The truth is healing is sometimes, fucking amazing and its what instagram shows us ; yah yoga on a beach and drinking a matcha latte whilst enjoying a sunset, its meditating and jounalling, its going to the gym ans smashing out loads of goals and a banging routine. BUT it can also at times be, waking up bolted in the middle of the night, thinking your back to your 6 year old self, the smell of him, your hysterical younger self crying with only fear running through her veins gasping for air. Its waking up the next day with pain a...